To many people, I am a happy-go-lucky person who laughs at everything and frown at nothing. But I guess my close friends know better. They will think that I am paranoid, cranky and at times hopeless. I am always on the move! There will always be something new in my life that I am experimenting. It doesn't matter what it is. Bottomline - I am doing something. Naturally, I will get excitable about almost everything and some of my friends reckon me "Highly Combustible - Stay neutral!" Downside: It makes me seem a little distractable at times. Being optimistic and all that, I am willing to fight for what I believe in. It will be really sad if you make everyone happy at the expense of your own happiness and future. Love wise, I am never a fighter. I prefer to let things take its stride. Call me a loser but I don't believe in love at first as well. Coz none of those "first love" work out for me. *sighz* I am slow and probably retarded when it comes to handling relationship. It is going to take a lot of time for me to make room for someone else in my life besides my family that I love so dearly. I'm not heartless or anything close but relationship has never been in my list of "To Do". At least for now. I hope this perception will change though. And if someone comes along again, I will take my chances.